Things my parents need to understand

  • I don't like to be touched:

    that includes hugging and tapping me on the shoulder

  • I spend all day in my bed when I am home:

    I'm too sad to do anything but lay there

  • Many of my friends don't seem to care about me:

    wonder why I spend my weekends at home?

  • Yes I am single:

    guys don't like me

  • Comments you make hurt:

    that includes the jokes

  • I don't like to clean my room:

    the messiness is my organization

  • You tell me I need to eat better:

    it feels like you're calling me fat

  • You tell me I won't be able to have success:

    I think that's a given

  • You have no confidence in me:

    I have none in me too

  • You make me feel like shit:

    I already feel that way

dontbesassyberamsassy: Exactly! I know it’s different for each person who suffers from social anxiety, but when I’m home alone, I feel perfectly fine, perfectly calm. But as soon as I’m around people - I can feel them starring at me like I’m not human, they’re judging everything I do or say. It’s horrible. It’s like I could be as far from them as possible, but they’re still too close. It’s suffocating. And you know what, sometimes when I get home I’m sitting there obsessing over everything I did or said around people and I freak out because I just know they all took every word and action the wrong way and tomorrow I’m going to have work my ass off to explain every mistake I made, and in the process I’m going to make it all even worse =/ And then in class, whenever a teacher picks on me to answer a question, I can feel EVERYONE starring at me with smug smiles, waiting for me to give a wrong answer, waiting to laugh at my pathetic attempt to answer a question. Then suddenly I know the answer. It’s right in front of me. It’s written down on my note book, right in front of me. I’m looking at the answer. Suddenly I try to say it, but all I can say is “I can’t remember”. Everyone looks at me like I’m thick as shit. They’re all smiling smugly and I just know they’re laughing in their head. They’re all sitting there thinking “God she stupid” “She so fucking ugly” “Why is this freak in our class?” “She’s so pathetic”. My cheeks are burning. They know I’m embarrassed. They feed off it. It’s terrifying. I hate it. All I want to do is run away.. but I can’t. If I did, they’d think I was a freak. They’d make fun of me. So I just sit there, being mocked. I’m just stuck. Sitting there. Trapped for the rest of my lesson. But mentally? I’m trapped for the rest of my life =/
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dontbesassyberamsassy:

Exactly! I know it’s different for each person who suffers from social anxiety, but when I’m home alone, I feel perfectly fine, perfectly calm. But as soon as I’m around people - I can feel them starring at me like I’m not human, they’re judging everything I do or say. It’s horrible. It’s like I could be as far from them as possible, but they’re still too close. It’s suffocating. And you know what, sometimes when I get home I’m sitting there obsessing over everything I did or said around people and I freak out because I just know they all took every word and action the wrong way and tomorrow I’m going to have work my ass off to explain every mistake I made, and in the process I’m going to make it all even worse =/ And then in class, whenever a teacher picks on me to answer a question, I can feel EVERYONE starring at me with smug smiles, waiting for me to give a wrong answer, waiting to laugh at my pathetic attempt to answer a question. Then suddenly I know the answer. It’s right in front of me. It’s written down on my note book, right in front of me. I’m looking at the answer. Suddenly I try to say it, but all I can say is “I can’t remember”. Everyone looks at me like I’m thick as shit. They’re all smiling smugly and I just know they’re laughing in their head. They’re all sitting there thinking “God she stupid” “She so fucking ugly” “Why is this freak in our class?” “She’s so pathetic”. My cheeks are burning. They know I’m embarrassed. They feed off it. It’s terrifying. I hate it. All I want to do is run away.. but I can’t. If I did, they’d think I was a freak. They’d make fun of me. So I just sit there, being mocked. I’m just stuck. Sitting there. Trapped for the rest of my lesson. But mentally? I’m trapped for the rest of my life =/

Trolling (:

  • Hannah:

    Can you tell him to talk to me again? I really miss him…

  • Leena:

    When you talk shit about his girlfriend and bug him, that’s what you get. Karma is a bitch. Trust me you’re the last thing he needs to bug him along with Katie. And he’s been telling me he’s glad he’s done with you.

  • Hannah:

    Yeah, but he means so much to me… I always thought I would have a future with him and I just… I just want him happy

  • Leena:

    You fucked that up by being annoying and talking shit about his girlfriend. sucks to suck eh?

  • Hannah:

    Ok…..

  • Leena:

    Yepp

  • Hannah:

    Please Leena, he means everything to me, I know you don’t like me

  • Leena:

    You brought it upon yourself, I’ve tried helping you out, but when you keep being a fuck up, then it’s out of my hands

  • Hannah:

    Please Leena, Cody deserves anything or anyone he can vent to and he certainly can do better than you

  • Leena:

    I’ve tried, you bug him and talk shit about the people he cares about and then you lose him. If he wanted someone else, such as you, he wouldn’t be with me. He doesn’t want you.

  • Hannah:

    Please convince him

  • Leena:

    Tried, he doesn’t want you in his life. Try not being a fuck up with someone else(:

  • Hannah:

    Leena you don’t know what Cody means to me and you sure as hell don’t know what you have right now. Cody deserves someone who can treat him right…

  • Leena:

    I treat him fine, you’re in the way. And I know how it goes. I had a guy like that and we barely talk now. I've got to great boyfriend and you’re pathetic. Cody thinks you're annoying and he’s sick of your bullshit and whining and thinks your pathetic. Grow the hell up and move on. Damn, he is right about how pathetic you are if you continue to chase him when he has made it clear he doesn’t want you. Find someone who does. My relationship with Cody is the least of your concerns.

  • Hannah:

    Yeah, your boyfriend is too good for you. Cody only gives and he always gets hurt, I bet it’s only a matter of time before you turn out like the rest of them-just becoming another number.

  • Leena:

    Fun shit, Ill let you know if that ever happens (:

  • Hannah:

    Yea, because Cody always says this one is different. He said that about you, Anna, Katie, and Rose, and it’s only a matter of time before you fuck up and break him more.

  • Leena:

    You think I don’t realize he uses the same lines on me that he has with them? Damn, he’s right about you being stupid too. I’ll worry about my relationship and you’ll worry about growing some balls and getting over him(: l’ll text you from my new number. Mum bought me a new phone

  • Hannah:

    Yea right, Cody doesn’t say shit unless he believes it, and you all trick him. And I doubt he told you anything, he doesn’t compliment people ever.

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